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I'm Ingrid from Ottawa. I was diagnosed September 2016 with HGSC stage 3 recurrent ovarian cancer. What a ride it has been! It had metastisized to my stomach. I had the complete hysterectomy, debulking and chemo. To date I've had 4 lines of chemo (6 treatments each, 3 weeks apart). I finished my last line in January of this year. I'm waiting for a CT scan to see what the tumours in my abdomen are doing. At the end of this line of chemo they hadn't changed in size. 
So far, besides chemo no other treatments/drugs have been prescribed. I have read about other treatments patients go through and wonder if I'm missing something...
I realize that every patient is different. The question I have is if the tumours are still there (3) why wouldn't they do another surgery? Is that something that is done? Sometimes I wish that I had a person with me during my appointments that better understands the system/disease that could ask the questions.
It would be nice I think to talk to someone who is going through similar experiences as I find that I don't always talk about my cancer as it can get a bit dark at times and I'd rather spare people the thoughts.

@ribohm
  Welcome to the Teal Sisters!  I am sorry to hear about your diagnosis.  I am glad you have found us. 
  By the sounds of it you are looking for a place to talk openly and learn more.  You have found the right place.
Before I reply to your message, I am throwing this quick one out so that you may be able to join us today,
On Thursdays we host a Teal Thursday chat at 1pm. It is open to discuss anything on your mind, what you are going through and/or are feeling.  Hopefully you will be able to join us today. Just click on the discussion thread Teal Thursday and join in.  I look forward to seeing you there should you be able to join in.  Just refresh your page to see new threads and continue on with the chat. I will get back to your message you posted shortly.  I will be hosting the discussion today.

@ribohm
  Hello again.  I did not want to rush my reply to you as I want to give it the attention it deserves. At the same time, I also wanted you to be able to join in the group chat should you be able to and participate.
  Welcome again and sorry to hear about everything you have been through.  First, I want to let you know that there is a link that I will give you to a FREE copy (either digital or paper) that is entitled By My Side.  I found it very useful and full of information when I was first diagnosed.  Here is the link:  Ovarian Cancer Canada - Support and Resources (ovariancanada.org)
  In answer to your first question, my guess is that they (your team) will wait to see what your CT Scan is saying before they recommend anything. So do your best not to fret too much, they will have a plan for you, they may have an idea but will confirm once they see your latest CT Scan.  You are HGSC which means there are still many treatment options out there for you yet. I do not believe they have exhausted their arsenal yet. This is good news!  
  It is a very good question as to why not do another surgery. Write it down for your next meeting and ask that question. Some reasons for not performing another surgery are: too many risks involved where the tumour(s) are currently, risk of spread, etc.  So feel free to ask your team and ask.  It could be a case, they want to save it for a later time or if they need to intervene for other reasons regarding organ involvement.  I am not sure in your case but your team will know.
  Now comes the issue of support for you.  Have you inquired with your team if there is any supports available to you?  If not have you tried contacting Wellspring?  Here is the link to it as well. It is full of resources and they may be able to help guide you along as well. Wellspring
  When you say you find it difficult to talk about your cancer because it gets "dark" at times, what does that mean to you?  Being diagnosed and going through cancer is a battle and it takes us places we never thought we would go before.  It can be wearing on oneself emotionally, mentally and physically.  Let us know if there is an area you are particularly having difficulty with and let's see if we can assist or direct you somewhere that can.  
  I look forward to hearing back from you.

Thanks@strongwoman! I guess when I did my intro post I was a little dark. Didn’t mean it to go that way but, once the words started flowing… 
I do have support via a counsellor that I talk to every couple of months. I think it’s time to make another appointment with her. Thanks for the insight, links and information it has helped calm whatever storm seemed to be brewing in my head. A chat with my counsellor will further settle the dust.
I think it’s the unknown that tends to work on the psychic the most. Having someone to help navigate through it all is most helpful.
So. What did I mean by dark? When I was first diagnosed I made a promise to myself and my family that, when the time came, I would not prolong dying. I have applied and been accepted in the MAID programme. It’s my way of having control over this disease. Since the paper work has been done it seems so much more real to me and that is why it’s time to talk to my councillor. That’s it really.
I tried to join in on the chat today but was unsuccessful. I will use my laptop next time instead of my phone. I really look forward to connecting with others and just hearing their stories. I am always pleasantly surprised on how like minded we all are. 

You said it sister@strongwoman! I did call my counsellor today who will be referring me to a group called fear of recurrence which is exactly what I could benefit from! Talked to an old friend yesterday and the sun is shining today. What more could you ask for?
I do take the small joys out of each day. Today it was a pair of robins but one cannot avoid being brightened listening to all of the birds singing.