@ChristinaW welcome to our group and my apologies for the delay in replying to your post.
First of all I am so sorry to hear of your recurrence. Your experience mirrors my own somewhat so I'm sure you're feeling much of what I felt at the time; everything from disappointment to anger to fear to confusion and more. Try to take a deep breath. I know that's not easy but as a member of our community now you are surrounded by women who share your experience, who can offer stories, advice, information, and who are here to support you through all phases of your journey.
LIke you I was diagnosed with HGSC stage 3C in January 2017 followed by the standard treatment process of surgery and chemo. Wow, when I look back at my Facebook posts I really thought I'd licked it. But a year and half later I also started experiencing some symptoms. I was fortunate to be a patient in Ontario and at a regional cancer center where we are assigned an oncologist who stays with your treatment throughout the course or until there is some reason to be transfered to the care of another of the staff. In my case my gyne-oncologist followed my treatment but transfered me to the the care of a medical oncologist once we had determined my recurrence qualified for a clinical trial that as under her supervision. But that continuity, even in the hand off of one to the other made everything easier for sure and the fact that my cancer centre is very experienced and equipped to manage those with OVC was another bonus.
I'm not sure where you're located but if the best they can offer is a "revolving" door of doctors and limited experience with OVC, then I would agree at least a consultation with a larger centre with the expertise in our disease should be the cards for you. Sunnybrook is excellent as is Princess Margaret. I urge you to press for that referral.
In the meantime, begin equipping yourself with information on recurrence so that you can prepare for any consultation with the questions you should be asking. Still By Your Side, if you haven't already got it, is an excellent guide produced by OCC that covers those in recurrence. It's the follow up to By Your Side, the guide they produce for those in primary treatment. You can order them in hard or soft copy and they are free. This link will take you to the page in the OCC website where you can order the booklets
https://ovariancanada.org/living-with-ovarian-cancer/support-resources And I urge you to canvass the OCC website. It houses a wealth of information on our disease.
You may also want to join in our weekly live online chats every Thursday at 1PM ET where you can get more immediate feedback to any questions you might have and get to know some of our members in a real-time environment. You can join in whenever the mood suits you. Just sign in to OVdialogue and then click on the Discussion Topic: Teal Thursday.....to enter the chat.
Monthly Teal Teas is another great opportunity to connect with others in our community. They are held on the Zoom platform with three sessions, one for Young Survivors, one for our general community and one for Survivors of 10 years+ once a month. You can get more information on these and register to participate on the OCC website under Local Events.
Finally, recurrence is scary. Use our community to express your concerns and feelings any time. We are all here for you whenever you need us, if only as a 'shoulder to lean on". And as for recurrence being the end of the world....I was diagnosed in early 2017, recurred the first time in 2019 and have recurred two more times since then. My cancer is not curable but it can be managed and one can learn to live with it. I'm now in my sixth year of survival having only been given a prognosis of three years. And I'm doing great. Yes, the constant need for treatment is a real drain sometimes. Yes, my life is different than the one I had expected to have. But yes, I'm alive and kicking and loving every minute of every day I have along with looking forward to many more. And I'm not the only one. Some have recurrence an after treatment the second time around never recur again. Some are like me and can attest to the benefit of not listening to the statistics and just focusing on yourself and your recovery, what ever form that might take.
Do keep us posted on your progress. Do reach out and let us know when we can help or what you need. In the meantime you will be in our thoughts.
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