First of all, @Scottishlass, no one on this site ever needs to apologize for meltdowns or expressing any emotion they're experiencing. We've all been there and get it. That's one of the reasons we're here......a safe place to blow off that steam when you need to.
And I can only imagine the disappointment you feel having recurred so quickly. But your experience is not unique. It likely means you are platinum resistant, meaning the platinum based drugs like Carboplatin, Cisplatin etc. either have no effect on you or do, but the effect is not sustainable long term. They usually tell us that if you don't recur within six months from end of first line treatment then you're considered platinum sensitive. These sensitivities inform our treatments moving forward and it's unfortunate there isn't some test you can take beforehand to determine which drugs are the most appropriate for you.
Disappointing and concerning as it is, it's not the end of the world. In fact, there's been much more focus on developing treatments for platinum resistance, especially the past year, than ever before. I have a friend just at the end of a trial that includes both an oral and an IV drug, the latter specifically developed for resistant and I can tell you a year ago, when she recurred she expected, at best, to get something that might stabilize her long term. But she has a complete response to this drug mix, in other words, her cancer is gone. I'm not sure what's next for her.....stay on the drug, get something else, or just wait and see. But right now she is just elated and so are the researchers who proposed this as a last possibility for her. And of course I also expect there are others in the trial who have only had a partial response and some non at all. But the results do imply there may be a new drug coming to market. Miracles do happen, and she's such a lovely lady...I'm so glad it's happened to her. On another note though, outside of this, there are lots of other options available and I'm sure your oncologist will be discussing them with you, if he/she hasn't already. And, you do have an advantage over many of us.....your cancer may be considered aggressive, which I translate to mean the type is high grade serous...but it's not advanced. You're only stage 2a.
My recommendation though is to arm yourself with as much information on your status as possible. The anxiety and fear you feel will somewhat dissipate as you better understand the what's and why's and have a concrete plan to address this unfortunate step back in your journey. If you haven't already, make a big list of questions to address with your medical team like:
Why has my cancer recurred so quickly?
What does this mean for my treatment plan?
What does this change mean to my long term prognosis?
Are there any trials available to explore for me?
And, of course, anything for which you might have a question and need some answers.
Sad to say but for most of us this journey we're on is seldom and straight route to follow. It's full of twists and turns and surprises, but many of those very positive. I find that into my fifth year I've become more able to weather the blips than at first....for me, it's helped to maintain my sense of humour....and to know I'm not alone.
Keep us posted on your progress. I'm sure as members do in to update themselves on recent discussions those who have had early recurrence, and there are many, will be weighing in with their own experiences to share with you.
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